why i'm not working a 9-5

for as long as i can remember, i have been stressed out. mostly subconsciously. started when i was very young. don't know why. it's not like my parents were constantly screaming, it's not like i was getting beat, or abused, or in serious danger in any way.

yet my cortisol (stress hormone) levels have been completely and utterly out of whack since i was about 4 years old.

what does this have to do with me not having a job? well!

i am someone who really desires to learn about my health and my body and how and why things work the way they do, so i have been on a journey of finding true rest and finding the 'why' behind my body's chemical imbalances. i have been trying really hard to lower my cortisol levels and just find out how to live. now that i'm not in school or at work i have no burdens or really stressful situations, yet i still feel the same. why? WHY WHY WHY? well that's what i'm trying to find out, silly! i need a therapist

anyways

so how do i make money?

i have like $3 guys it's not fun. but it's still better than being employed.

and i will try my hardest not to get a corporate job ever again. it is not my cup of tea. i am meant to be a housewife guys /srs but i can't do that unless i have a husband so currently i'm turning into a spinster and i am going to try and start my own business here on the farm (more on that in another post).

props to everyone who has a job. kind of jealous of you. but also not at all. send me a few bucks guys y r u so selfish :/ $genieweeniexx AHAHHAA im kidding! (i'm not)

ANYWAYS i love you guys and i hope you think of me everytime u play fortnite xoxo